30 October, 2012

Thoughts on the Near Future

So I have officially been back from China for nine months now... wow.  It's amazing how much has changed in that amount of time, yet how my feelings for China are still just as wonderful as they were when I first landed back in the states.  I thought that I would be calming down after awhile, but no, I've still got a case of the Asian Persuasion.  I also may or may not have purchased a sticker of the Shanghai skyline to go across the bottom of my laptop.  Best eight dollars I've ever spent.
What's even more amazing is how soon I am leaving for Italy.  I'm in a state of complete denial, not because I don't want to go, but because I'm scared to leave my friends.  This semester has been crazy, with all of my friends living in different buildings on campus and me basically living in Beck, all while I'm overloading on classes.  But, I'm happy, which is more than I could say about last semester.  So in the Spring, I was ready to get on a plane and leave St. Peter as soon as possible, whereas right now I'm hesitant.  I've met some people this year who I've never talked to before, and it saddens me to think that I won't see them for so long.  I've made great relationships with professors and my boss at work, and I'm scared those relationships may diminish as I'm away.  I'm finally finding my place at Gustavus, and now I'm leaving.
However, I am not letting any of those feelings get in the way of me having an amazing time in Italy.  I already bought my plane tickets, sent in my Visa application, and am in the process of getting a scholarship (yay!).  So, what have I got to fear?  My friends who are truly my friends will remain that way whether I am here or not.  They will be okay with the fact that I can't always skype (TARA), and they'll be ready to let me crash on their couches when I come back to visit Gustavus in May :)  Overall, I'm really excited, just in disbelief that this is actually happening!!!
Also, I've been looking into teaching/mission work abroad for after graduation.  I'm having a lot of issues with this, because my passion for travel and culture are clashing with my desire to stay surrounded by the people I love.  Yes, I know that after graduation all of my friends are going to go their separate ways as we try to get real-people jobs or go to graduate school.  It's just hard to think that I would be on the other side of the world, at least a 5 hour plane ride away.  I've wrote in my personal statements for my study abroad applications that I'm trying to confront my fears head on, and that I'm in the process of learning that sometimes you have to go on life's adventures alone in order to experience all you want to experience.  Let's be honest though, there's no way in hell I would have driven myself to Westside Skydivers and jumped out of a plane if I hadn't had Nikki there with me.  I was only able to jump out of that plane because the guy strapped to me jumped himself.  Now I know how amazing the free fall really is after you get over the terror of what you're doing.  I just need to get the courage to jump.

04 October, 2012

Why I Absolutely Hate Politics.

Fact: I hate politics.
Want to know why? Because they're stupid.  Okay, that's not an actual reason, but in all honesty, I think politics, in particular presidential races, are stupid.  I don't understand why we think that one person can run a country.  Seriously, how can one person be completely right on everything? How am I supposed to back one of two people up if there are a hundred or so different issues that they have stands on?  Partisan politics are ridiculous, it's not like you MUST agree with Republicans on money just because you agree with them on something like gay marriage, or anything like that.  Middle ground exists for a reason, yet people seem to think that we have to fit into one of two boxes.  Yes, I have already voted for President, and yes, I stand behind the man I voted for.  However, that does not mean that I agree with everything he says, or that I disagree with everything the other party says.  I hate how this is all a popularity contest.  Especially since the majority of American voters have no idea what they're voting for.  There are few people in this country who I think has a reason to vote, I not being one of them.  I also hate that certain people think that their political belief is absolutely correct and that people on the other side of the spectrum are not only wrong, but bad people for thinking the way I do.
Also, stop telling me how to vote. It makes me want to vote the other direction just to spite you.
So, in summary, I hate politics.  No one can talk about it in a civil manner.  I can't wait for this voting stuff to be over.