30 April, 2012


I DON'T KNOW IF YOU HEARD THE FANTASTIC NEWS, BUT KEVIN IS BACK IN THE BACKSTREET BOYS.  Okay, so they were still making music and touring without him, but I don't think people realize how much preteen joy was brought back to my heart when I discovered that the five were back together.  So, in honor of the gang being all back together, I thought I would write about why I, an almost-twenty-year-old honors major in college is still desperately  obsessed with the Backstreet Boys, and always will be.
This was taken inconspicuously in the library.Yes,some people will complain that they don't make "real" music, and I agree that they don't write their own songs.  Which is fine by me.  You know, I can't write music, but I LOVE to sing.  Does that mean that I'm not allowed to sing because I can't write my own music?  No.  Just like people who are amazing song writers but can't sing shouldn't be stopped from writing music.  The Backstreet Boys are amazingly talented. They all have great voices, and they know how to harmonize like NO BODY'S BUSINESS.  Because I listened to them all of my life, I now love to sing harmony over the main melody if I can.  It gets a little difficult though, because I do end up trying to sing all five parts, since I know them all.
I also love the Backstreet Boys because they sing songs that I actually agree with.  Yes, they're cheesier than cheesy bread.  But you know what, I would rather have a boy who is trying to date me sing to me that he would "love me more than that", that "no one else comes close" to me, than "ass ass ass ass...".  I don't care how cheesy BSB is, I want cheesy.  I want that lovey dovey feeling that their songs give me.  And until I have that, I will just have to stick with listening to them!
The end of the story is that I will love Backstreet Boys until the day I die.  I will continue buying their CDs until they stop making them, and I will never turn down the opportunity to go to one of their concerts.  My children will grow up listening to them just as my mother raised me to love Barry Manilow.  And I am not at all embarassed by that fact.  Well, this was a completely unnecessary post, but I just felt like I had to do it.  This is my blog, and you can't get to know me without knowing my love for the Backstreet Boys.  And yes, I did put on my Never Gone t-shirt in honor of Kevin being back.  And I did take a picture of myself wearing it in the library without anyone noticing (I hope).
So I have nothing to leave you with today but a great BSB song :)
xo Mads

29 April, 2012

My New and Improved Philosophy on Life.

I've been wanting to write this down for a while now, not just so you all can see it, but so I can really see it.  I've found that writing down or talking through my ideas gives me the deeper meaning that I've been searching for.  So, my new outlook on life came from a series of strange and different events.  First off, I went to China, as I've said before, and it completely changed my priorities.  I came back realizing that being successful and having 'Dr.' before my name JUST for the sake of having the title were not important things when choosing a career.  I realized that I didn't want a career where I would be working non-stop and have to be on call when I wasn't there.  I want a job where I can take time off to travel, where I can see my kids enough (if I even want kids... but that's a different story), where the likelihood of me and my husband (fingers crossed) getting a divorce doesn't increase with the job.  I've spent all of my life thinking that I need to be perfect, and I now know that that's not what I care about. So, I decided to drop my biology major and pre-med "dream" to become a honors psych major who wanted to become a psychology professor.
Coming back from China I was so extremely happy. I felt like I had realized that I could survive being single (another long story), and I was finally looking forward to my life.  After some other events, my life felt like it was turned upside down, and I found myself in therapy for mild depression and anxiety.  I'm not ashamed of it, especially since I feel like I'm moving in a great direction.  I've realized that all I want is to be a happy, kind, and loving person.  I have been striving to forgive those who have hurt me, and to stop judging those I don't already know.  I'm trying to live my life in a way that I can die happily three years from now, knowing that I did my best to be a good person and to take risks.  You would think this would be easy, being positive.  Well, its not.  But, its worth it.  Instead of dying a rich, lonely doctor, I get to die a decently well off professor who has family and friends around her, with a life full of memories behind her.  I have an exciting, adventurous life ahead of me, and I can't wait to live it.
This is pretty deep for midnight on a Saturday... I'm impressed with myself!
xo Mads

27 April, 2012

An Introduction to Me

Hey there!  I saw one of my friends started blogging, and I have always wanted to have one myself, so here I am!  You may or may not find my blog interesting, even if we're close friends.  This is more for me than for you, anyway!  I'm a psychology honors major at Gustavus with a to-be triple minor in biology, neuroscience, and sociology/anthropology (I come off as an overachiever, I know).
I studied abroad in China for J-Term this year with one of my best friends in the world, Tara!  It was truly a life-changing experience, and I have no idea how to put my feelings about  my trip into words.  Today my friend Erik told me he's missing China and I almost cried, because I miss it every second of every day!  I learned so much about myself and what I want out of my life on that trip, it was truly amazing.  I lived out of a suitcase for three weeks; I even had to rewear clothes without washing them! No worries, I brought enough of the clothes that should not be reworn without washing for every day.  But I got back to my dorm and realized that I have SO MUCH STUFF.  The majority of which is useless or unnecessary.  I have spent my life accumulating all of these things that have no true importance in my life.
When in China, I also learned about what is truly important in life.  I went to China as a pre-med biology major, came out knowing that going to medical school was the last thing on my priority list.  I want to live my life so that I can die in three years knowing that I have truly lived.  I want to travel the world.  I am so sick of Minnesota.  I want to go experience the world!  I want a career where I can go places and learn and LIVE.  I honestly am still on this high that I got from China, and I don't know if I'll ever come down.  But honestly, I don't want to!  I've lived the past four months of my life focusing on what is truly important in life!  Yes, my grades are important, but being happy and having friends is more important.  I've had my ups and downs though; I am not afraid to admit that I have issues.  But I have been using my past experiences and my new outlook on life (thanks mostly to yoga philosophy and my faith in God and Jesus) to move forward from the hard times and mistakes in my life.

SO.  In conclusion, this is going to be the story of my life for all of you to see!  I'll be studying abroad in Rome for Spring semester next year, as well, so I guess you'll get to see that too!  You'll probably get sick of my obsession with travelling the world, but that's okay with me, this is my blog, not yours!
Do me a favor.  Have yourself a super day!

xo Mads